Without fully realizing it at the time, my family was my strength during the wait and the first few months that followed. I listened to everything positive and leaned on them because all I had was doubt. God doesn't make mistakes. God has a plan which may not be known at the present time. God will reveal it through time.
Over time, the doubt went away. In it's place was strength, as promised. I found it from loving Matthew and caring for him with every breath and wanting only what was best for him. I found it in Bill. I found it in the encouragement offered from extended family. I found it in supportive old friends. I found it within the large network of families who have kids with Down syndrome. That's how I found strength.
Today, a facebook friend posted inspiring words that ring so true for me. I consider it the answer to my "Why me? Why us?" questions.
"God doesn't give children with special needs to strong people; He gives children with special needs to ordinary, weak people and then gives them strength. Raising a child with special needs doesn't TAKE a special family, it MAKES a special family."